Sick...

:( i ve been sick now for two days ..
just wanted to blog this to remember how does it feel to be sick and how to appreciate health one has been given....
Get well soon Dear Me :(

Sweet Dreams

Sweet dreams are made of this
Who am I to disagree?
Travel the world and the seven seas
Everybody's looking for something
Some of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by you
Some of them want to abuse you
Some of them want to be abused

Sweet dreams are made of this
Who am I to disagree?
Travel the world and the seven seas
Everybody's looking for something
Some of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by you
Some of them want to abuse you
Some of them want to be abused

I wanna use you and abuse you
I wanna know what's inside you
(Whispering) Hold your head up, movin' on
Keep your head up, movin' on
Hold your head up, movin' on
Keep your head up, movin' on
Hold your head up, movin' on
Keep your head up, movin' on
Movin' on!

Sweet dreams are made of this
Who am I to disagree?
Travel the world and the seven seas
Everybody's looking for something
Some of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by you
Some of them want to abuse you
Some of them want to be abused

I'm gonna use you and abuse you
I'm gonna know what's inside
Gonna use you and abuse you
I'm gonna know what's inside you............

Rotating

Life is so circular !! keeps moving on like a wheel
sometimes we are so high up the sky we feel we are flying
sometimes we are so down deep down we feel we are Dying
Others we are neither up nor down ..we are Floating..
but Though it's circular those ups and downs never occur in order they are alwayS random with an Unkown pattern that Only God Knows
I think This is one of the Things that makes life completely intresting
because one wanna know what will happen Next ? will it be good or bad ?? The endless wonder about the Future..

well i hope i stay flying or floating for the maximum time ,,i don't wanna fall again..

Though i now recall a phrase from batman i really Loved
Why do we Fall ?
so we can pick ourselves up everytime we Fall




and as Switchfoot sings
" I Dare you to Move
Dare you to Lift yourself up of the floor !!!!!!! "

I Dare yOu to MOVE :)

Today is a differant day !

yesterday is history
tomorrow is a mystrey
today is a GIFT
i love this Quote ...
I hope i use my gift well ..
:) May God Help me ..

*LUCKY*

i admit am lucky !
i think everyone who is alife is lucky
he/she is given the chance to do something ! fix the wrong and do the Right !
i have had lots of lucks and good chances Thank God but sometimes i cry cry cry :(
am sad
the endless tension and war inside my brain between who Iam and who i want to be always ruins and saddens my mood ..
Am i Crazy ??
There's always this war :( endless war between a very good me and a very bad me :(
i enjoy being both sometimes :-D
but others i feel bad when iam in the " good " " saint " mood and i regret anything bad i ve done ,,on the other hand i feel good just when am acting alitle bad , breaking the habit or going absolutely crazy doing just what pops up to my mind...
i think my soul is a shrew one that really needs to be tamed ,,that's why i like this name " shrewsoul " it's completely me :-)
hmm ...beware Myself coz Iam taming YOU ! :@

Restart

Fresh wind blew through my window
it cleaned my breath
fresh water fall from tap
it cleaned my soul
fresh thoughts came to my mind
and cleaned me from the dullness of the black and the deepness of the blue ..

AM RESTARTING

AM DONE WIZ U

Y suddenly i see lots of things that are so obvious but i just never saw them !

A lesson in life

Everything happens for a reason.Nothing happens by chance or by means of good or bad luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity. All occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small test, if they be events, illness or relationships, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere.

If someone hurts you, betrayes you, or breaks your heart, forgive them. For they have helped you learn about trust, and the importance of being cautious to who you open your heart too.

If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and opening your heart and eyes to things that you would have never seen or felt without them.

Make everyday count. Appreciate every moment, and take from it everything you possiably can, for you may never be able to expiernce it again.

Talk to people you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Hold your head up, because you have the right too. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself. For if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you either.

You can make of your life anything you wish, create your own life and then go out there and live it.

Am back :D

well well well :) Here Iam !! This is me :)
wow it's been months ..well i will try to be constantly blogging and see what it feels like :D ??? huh ?
ummm as usual :D Zero comments :) well that's a start anyway lol ..

S A D

I don't know why i feel that bad from inside...
it's not the good time to feel bad nor to be sad..
why everyone has changed :(
my friends no longer care about me :(
i feel very bad and disappointed
i just wish they supported me and were by myside
they used to care about me :( now no one cares ...
even her :( .. she used to be my best friend ,,,but it feels now we r like strangers
she doesn't want to talk to me it seems ..and she doesn't care......
i listen to celine dion all by myself :( and i feel it so much when she says ..i dial the telephone but no body is home ......

They lost the Grip ??
should i lose it too :(:( ??????






i will not think about anyone except myself and my beloved ones ...........
i have had enough....................
mind and soul had enough ...





am not the one who started this and i don't deserve to be treated like that ..



:(

bye for now.......

Not Happy !!!

i wonder whats the opposite of being happy ?? being sad or being cold
i feel both sad and cold .. that's brilliant isn't it ....






i feel lost too i have so many things inside i can't tell to anyone ,,so many things inside burning in my veins ,,i want to cry but i can't............

i wish to die but am too coward to do so ,,because i love life..............

i hate my miserable feelings and negative thoughts that break me to small peices
i hate the loneliness i feel...........

i hate having to explain myself and what i do...........

i hate feeling guilty ........



i hate it ,,when i want you to see something but u forget , or you don't have time , i try to give you excuses but am angry inside ..those little things means alot to me ,,





i hate fighting on trivial matters ......

i hate being ok then suddenly we get into the worst fights ever.....

i hate it when am asking for your help and you are not supportive ........

i hate it when those words ring in my ear " silence is the best friend that never betrays "






i hate blogging and writting my feelings for completely strangers to see and read them ,,i hate the loneliness in the world ,,that we are billions in number but we are so lonely in hearts..

i hate all the blood and bad news i read everyday...........

i hate using religions in every aspect of our lifes ...........

i hate false information sent and spread world wide to brainwash people or to make fun of their minds .........

i hate how everything now needs money ..........





i hate it when i look in the mirror and see my reflection as am not beautiful.....

i hate when i know am doing wrong and i do it ......

i hate the way i myself and ppl change ........

i hate the depressing feelings that whenever something bad happens comes out and attack me so hard ... and so painfully......

i hate whoever is reading this ..lol........

ok enough hatred when am feeling better i will talk about love ........may be....

Regrets of a busy Mother ..




My hands were busy through the day,
I didn't have much time to play,
the little games you asked me to.
I didn't have much time for you.

I'd wash your clothes, I'd sew and cook,
But when you'd bring your picture book,
and ask me, please to share your fun,
I'd say, "a little later son."


I'd tuck you in all safe at night,
and hear your prayers, turn out the light,
then tiptoe softly to the door,
I wish I'd stayed a little more.
For life is short, and years rush past,

A little boy grows up so fast.
No longer is he at your side,
his precious secrets to confide.
The picture books are put away,
there are no children's games to play,
No good night kiss, no prayers to hear,
that all belongs to yesteryear.


My hands once busy now lie still,
the days are long and hard to fill,
I wish I might go back and do,
the little things you asked me to!


i have read this poem somewhere , i really love it
because what comes to your mind when you read it
it is not only about mothers
it also has a deep meaning that applies to most things in our lives ,,why we think we are so busy to show that we care ?
and why we never say " I LOVE YOU " or " you really mean alot to me " to some one when we really have the chance ? why it's always too late :(
this is an invitation to whoever reads this ,,think about the most important persons in yourlife ,,call them and tell them how you feel
Before it's too late ..
:)

The Batman

he's not a hero... he's a silent guardian, a watchful protector... a Dark Knight..

lately i have been watching Batman II or let's say " The Dark Knight " on daily basis
i think i got a little obsessed about it...
it's seems like when i like a movie i keep watching it a million time till i know every word said by heart ,,same thing applies to good music ,, good books or even pictures ....then i get bored and start to look for something else :D
and the cycle never ends .......

anyways here are some of the quotations i liked in " The Dark Knight "

Batman: Sometimes, truth isn't good enough, sometimes people deserve more. Sometimes people deserve to have their faith rewarded.

Batman: [to the Joker] What were you trying to prove? That deep down, everyone is as ugly as you? You're alone!

this phrase is so deep ,, i love it !!!

at last i really feel sorry for Heath ledger's death ,,he was really a skilled actor and his role as a joker was one of the best villains i have ever seen :)
i wish him heaven ...

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